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hullabaloo about mental illness

mental illnesses, disorders, and all that hullabaloo

for a very long time, I inhabited the world of UNdiagnosed, MISdiagnosed, and OVERmedicated. it’s a full-time job, pursuing affordable, qualified psychiatric care. and, when you finally find a doctor that takes your insurance, and is qualified to deal with the specifics of your illness(es), they’re not taking new patients. it’s a very involved process, […]

anguish from mental pain

anguish

I am falling apart. it’s agony. mental illness physically hurts me. torments me every day. I’ve been scratching and digging my head and considering peeling skin off my feet. I need to feel something different from mental pain. bleeding would be good too. but I can’t. I am purposefully surrounded by my family. they are […]

I'm wounded from this disease

wounded

I’m a liar. so I’m saying this truthfully. let me explain. I’m a liar by omission, and also, by words. there was a time in my life (not recently) when I endured verbal abuse. it became, as I’m sure you can imagine, horrible to live with. I felt like a dog, being kicked over and […]

acceptance

this is my truth: I will ALWAYS have a “difficult” relationship with food. I hope I don’t always see it as my enemy. “adversary” is a better word. I have accepted that. my head is so utterly tired. I wonder if I’ll ever eat anything, EVER again, without hating myself afterwards. I really want to […]

commit

My blog is for people that don’t want to commit. They want their dose of gritty, raw truth in paragraphs that end perilously too soon. my words are meant to bridge the gap between the “now” and the commitment to ending the cycle of self-harming. bridging the gap means taking a leap. it’s hard…there is […]