I’m bipolar. I require prescription medication to manage this mental illness. I’ve been on medication for a number of years, and it has allowed me to lead a “normal” life (whatever THAT means). Mania and depression have plagued me for so long…it was a welcome, overwhelming wash of “even-temperedness” and well-being that came over me […]
I am taking time to write, for the first time in 4 weeks. I have been consumed by a voracious need to create artistically, fueled by a recent volunteer position I’ve accepted. I’m doing freelance graphic design for a wonderful nonprofit. I’ve been given complete artistic freedom (intoxicating) and almost no guidelines or rules. All […]
I’ve heard it many times. What a great loss, the “art of letter writing.” I have to agree, and would extend the sentiment to include almost all hand writing, especially in junior high/high school. There were love letters, to and from my first love; notes to friends (written in or out of school); and various […]
after being unceremoniously discharged from my psychiatrist/therapist of over 20 years, I’m in the business, once again, of interviewing a new therapist (I’ve found a psychiatrist). I’ve got Medicare and it’s covered…just need to find one that participates with Medicare. Not too hard, but it’s the rapport and the relationship that I’m looking for. I’ve […]
So we ended up there. And we stayed there, in and out, for months, until the end. I would NEVER have guessed that cancer would find us. I thought “I have MS…isn’t that enough?” But God saw it differently, and I have to live with that. I dream of that morning, when he aspirated blood […]
He died yesterday, May 27, 2017. I have felt him, in millions of ways, and have HEARD him a lot lately. This is a relatively “new” sensation. I can remember conversations with him (and that includes how he responded; if we laughed; whether we were in the car or not, etc)….all those things. But this […]
Geez, I can’t believe I’ve been away from this blog so long. I’ve become very bad at setting limits. this is made evident by my latest obsessive/compulsion with freelance graphics. I was a marketing publications designer in my other life and marketing director during my full-time career. I’ve been away from it twenty years, but […]
I use it. it helps a great deal with chronic pain, depression and anxiety. I say this knowing I’ll be judged and looked down upon by lots of readers. this is unfortunate, but does not sadden me. if you’ve had chronic pain, you get it. I hope the rest of you never have it. but […]
I have this love/hate relationship with summer. it’s terrifying to have to wear LESS clothing, because of the seasonal temperatures. it’s horrible to be SCARED of summer. but I also LOVE summer. I like reasonably warm temps. and I love that it stays light later. I like fresh fruits and vegetables. laying by the beach, […]
it took a while, for me to discover that it was abuse. in the beginning, it just seemed to be good-natured ribbing, like you would do with a good friend. maybe not your girlfriend, but still it seemed innocuous. harmless even. that is until it WASN’T. the graphic in this piece is a fairly good […]
it was suggested to me by a professional that I have PTSD from the experiences I have endured in past years. Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a psychiatric disorder that may occur in people who have experienced or witnessed a traumatic event such as a natural disaster, a serious accident, disturbing death of a spouse, a […]
I don’t know what anything means anymore. recovery? wellness? I don’t know. all I know is how I feel, and I feel BETTER. Better. there’s that word again. for me, better is about feeling less sad. less depressed and melancholy. just LESS of the bad stuff. and more good stuff. I am in a “better” […]
